Seasons Greetings Sulie Baren Hensen Arthur

Christmas time 12/16/14 Tuesday, 3:26pm

Dear sibling sister Sulie,

I am at the Family Research Library just north of the old cafe rio building in Saint George. If all goes well we will have a library like this built by the temple in 3 years!

Someone chose me for the 12 days of Christmas this year. I think it is my old bishop's family. They are so serviceful and I go out of my way to recognize all they do. So last night I got 20 Christmas cards from my Christmas elf to send out this year.

When I was a painter I had tons of time to think about life. When I was a teacher I didn't. Now I am an Italian Indexer and I do have plenty of time to think about life again. When one is engaged in mind numbing work it leaves the brain free to fly. As I type these names they remind me of people and family. Today I typed Giulia, they don't use J in Italiano, and I began to think about you and considered writing. My best old friend David Jentzsch's wife sends me a Christmas card each year and I have written them back but he doesn't ever answer.[1/6/15 but he wrote me back half a page! and I have his correct FAcebook account now.  So Awesome!]

Writing is a relatively safe way to communicate. No immediate responses are expected and one needn't read the rest if offended or triggered.

If you dared to answer some questions for me this is what I would ask:

- How are you and the church?

- How are you and Dan?

- How is your health and body?

- How long until retirement for you guys?

- What brings you the most joy these years?

-What brings you the greatest sadness?

- If you had 3 wishes, what would you wish for?

-Which days are your hardest?

-Which days are your easiest?

- Tell me 5 things you are proud of from your life?

-Tell me 5 things you are ashamed of?

-When would you like to die? Never and Now are options. : )

-Do you read or write for pleasure?

-Who are you close to? Do you have any totally trustworthy friends?

Good enough.

I will answer those same questions to fill this one page. (I do weird things.vj)

-H I am 100% in. It is my foundation.

-H WE are sadly divorced. Sept. '11 Kathy was here for Tgiving we said Hi.

-H Pretty good. Way overweight but hiking the dogs each day.

-H I was forced out. So living on my retirement already. 21 months. : )

-W My children.

-W Worry for my children. When I am not so anxious about my own issues that pop up all the time.

-I 1-Michael'92 to communicate and go on a mission. 2- A new happy marriage. 3-Blessings on my children.

-W Mondays.

-W Sundays

-T I made it to retirement teaching Jr. High. I never stop trying. I did psychotherapy 5 years. Even when my testimony was dead I did not leave the church. I have been a good spiritual example for my children.

-T perhaps in the future

-W now

-D both 

-W no one. no. ADVENTUREBILL1 is my blog. 4:09p
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4:33p

Tuesday, January 06, 2015 

The FHC opened yesterday. Claudia Owens saw me and signaled me that I was wanted in the principal’s office by Boyce Jensen. Made perfect sense to me considering the dreams I have been having lately!

I did not recognize her until I studied her nose and facial expressions. She had snow white hair from the front and I thought, no way this can be my Boyce Jensen!  But it is.  : )  What a blessing.  We took care of business and I left.

As I was out walking the dogs I realized I might have missed the chance of a lifetime.  Will I ever see her again?  I stopped by the office on my way in and sure enough she was not there today! A few hours later though I saw her helping a patron right behind me, and I kept my eye out for her for the rest of the time.

How dare I cross that bridge? It was so important to me but how should I do it? I decided to write a note. [Yep, you know me!] And better still I decided to write it on the backside of My Christmas letter to Sulie! How could I get Sulie’s Christmas letter? Off the  cloud. . . right here from my  blog. O, the joys of the cloud! And the joys of journaling on it!

Boyce used to live in Sulie and Stan’s ward, and that is all I knew.

I wrote her that the letter on the other side was the one I had sent to Sulie this Christmas’14 for the first time in a decade or two.

She came out of the “principal’s office” to visit with me about my note. This is what I learned.

-they still live in the same house.

-they are active in the ward.

-Stan is a counselor in the bishopric along with Boyce’s son, Brother Jensen

-B thinks Sulie will not read my letter off the internet and hoped I would sent it instead. I reassured her that I did that first. : )

-B has always liked S and thought the world of her.

-B thinks S became reclusive when her bishop and ward leaders would not believe her parental accusations.

-It wasn’t until a little 12 year old boy began abusing little girls and they followed up on his history and confessions about my parents and the things they did to him in “that basement” that the ward members started to give any credence to Sulie’s stories.

-B thinks the current bishopric are including her and putting their arms around her. Accepting her and helping her feel safe. Me- glory be!

I told Boyce I had not received a response to my Christmas letter.

AS I consider what I heard I feel:

-angry and indignant that church leaders did not believe S to begin with.

-surprised to hear it took a 12 year old boy acting out his experiences on little girls to be the straw that broke the camel’s back. 

-celebratory to hear they are active and surprised.  I just figured that since Jim McArthur helped Stan through the whole ordeal back then and since Jim was one of my sister’s sexual and ritual abusers as well as plural husband, that they SnS had just slid down that path as well. And I was aching inside.  I’m still not sure.

-grateful beyond words to hear she/they are being included and trusted in their ward!

-delighted that B was able to respond and still thinks so highly of S after all these years.

And then B asked how I was doing?  Me- sorry, no answer! You have to email me!  yessss!

Adventure Bill to the rescue! Not really but that is fun to write.ab 5:04p

PPS. There have only been 3 readers on this letter so it should be quite safe!ab