Thursday, October 22, 2015

LeGrand Richards, fibromyalgia, City Council election, BLM land grab, apostle Paul, 3 cylinders




~@ ~Sunday, 12:17 midnight, Hello bps, Life is good. I am blessed. You are wonderful and loved. I just got up from bed where I have been studying for the last hour. We had a good, loud half hour thunderstorm earlier tonight. Maybe you remember it. @ I studied Lesson 20 in the priesthood manual and Jacob 5 lesson in my BoM manual. Today we sang, 260: Whose on the Lord’s side? in priesthood. We did Acts Ch. 7 to the end in SS and Jesse Bird showed my all his typed pages for the lesson and shared that it was the first time he has ever finished one of his typed outlines of the lesson.  He brings pages all printed out of the questions and scriptures he wants to read etc.. One of the best prepared and intelligent SS teachers I have ever had as an adult. He even handled Hal Demke with aplomb today. Hal asked how he felt when he read Paul saluting Agrippa? as the King of the World or something. Jesse responded, clever! Paul was extremely bright and knew how to play his cards and told his personal story of conversion two different ways depending on his audience. He knew his audiences! That almost makes me want to go read those chapters and see what they were talking about.-v I asked Jesse in a letter last year if he had autistic tendencies. He never answered. But I see it in him regularly. But some would say he is off the charts, because he is so high functioning. He programs computers and writes code and can recite from memory verse after verse from the BoM that he has used to guide his life. His wife sits on the front row and he has the whole adult ward there in his lessons. They have 5 little kids including a pair of twins. Plus he and his brother Nathan Bird are my HT and never visit me. :( But let me tell you the insight and approval I felt before I came in to write you. I write all over my lesson manuals and scriptures. It keeps me awake and crystallizes my thoughts and questions. Doug Lefler HP teacher, said he can’t read a lesson from beginning to end, so he listens. They can be downloaded. As he listens he has thoughts just like HBE said at the end of lesson 20. Well it is the same for me but I can read a lesson from beginning to end because I talk back to the lesson! So instead of lecture it becomes a dialog for me! That was a sidetrack. @ Jesse may have told his wife that for the first time this year he finished his lesson notes, but I don’t think anyone else in the ward will ever find out. He isn’t open. He doesn’t share. So what does it say if he volunteered his response to me? Well #1 it means he appreciated my compliment telling him it was the clearest lesson on the end of Paul’s life I have ever heard. And #2 it means he knows me and trusts me and that we are distant friends at least to some degree!  That flatters me. That is so wonderful I can get out of bed in the middle of the night and come and write you and tell you about it. How is it I came to that conclusion here in the middle of the night? Because I am pondering. I am pondering and reading and learning and applying. You have heard me say before that I believe pondering includes reliving my experiences of the day. And it is more than just recalling and remembering them. It is feeling them. It is analyzing them and seeing how they match up to gospel principles like fellows-hipping, shepherding, accepting and loving and valuing others. @ Chris Bradley moved into Amber Allgood’s house 2 years ago.  I teased him about looking like David Bednar at first.  He and his wife ran the Saint George marathon 2 weeks ago. He is an accountant and she is our primary president. He told me that his wife beat him by 45 minutes! The furthest I have ever run was 9 miles and I was sore for a week after wards. Can you imagine running 26? Man, I would be so proud if I ever did that! Jim,bom-class member has run 50 marathons. What does that tell you about him? And he is faithful and well based in the scriptures. So how did I find out about Chris and Maria Bradley’s marathon’s results? He was giving me a piece of mail for Amber and I asked if he knew anyone who ran the marathon. I thought I overheard someone say something 3 weeks ago. Much of my ability to reach out comes from my years of reaching out to Jr. High students. But can you see how interesting the world gets when we start to reach out and visit and question and encourage and accept? The news and the tabloids and the sports and the movies will be meaningless in the next life. Our relationships here will expand for eternity. These are HF’s children and this is our playground/ daycare/ laboratory and we can help each other learn the things we were short on in the premortal existence. And it is so much more fun when we don’t have to work alone!@ Well I was blessed and I just had to share it with you. Thanks for listening again. 12:58am Tuesday, 10/20/15, 11:46am I sent you a yellow postcard/postcard sized paper yesterday. KJ said you had  finished volume 3 so I ordered you volume 4 of the Work and the Glory series. This one will be purple. In my opinion you have had some wonderful things to read this year!!!! lol @ Empty Nesters are parents only households. All the chicks have matured and fledged and flown. Weekly appointments I am good at but monthly ones are too far apart to remember! I went to our EN FHE last week and then again last night. It was really only last night but I forced myself to stay up and awake last week so I could go, ineffectively! BS went with me last night. He is generous and supplied KFChicken for potluck. It was gone by the end and Patricia Carter showed me the empty container. Good job BS! @ I have always functioned on just 3 cylinders, fitness, spirituality, work. And I have always been so stressed that I have little additional energy for anything else. Of course reading each night and eating each night were purely for pleasure. So that is my excuse for never caring about the news nor politics nor community service. Kent Perkins has been in for 39 years as our Leisure services director. Gil Almquist my stake president has been on city council for 8 years. Michele Randall, ward member is just finishing 2 years AS city council woman and has two more for this term of office. All 3 have addressed us at our EN-FHE in the last 8 months and Michele Randall was last night. This is the text messaged I sent to all our EQ last night.> >_EQ, City counsel-woman, Michele Randall, spoke at our empty-nesters' FHE tonight. @ She was too sick to eat anything but she presented well. I learned lots. @Julie Moss kept her company. 3 things I can act on: 1early voting has opened. Bryan thiriot and the incumbents (2) Jimmie Hughes and Bette Thiriot are good choices. 2The BLM LAND grab can be protested. We will lose 10% of our water supply and all camping n off roading privileges. 3 she gets at least 100 whining, often foul emails a day as a counsel-woman. The city carousel pays for itself and some, every year. She n Kent Perkins can't wait for the All Abilities Train park to be completed, although most expensive in outlay. [Kent calls the train a cash cow because one you get one it pays for itself in 5 years and after wards generates income.]@ Only 10% have opted out of mandatory recycling beginning January. @ Kent Perkins (39years leisure services director), spoke to us last spring and Gil Almquist city councilman, (and our stake president) spoke to us last month, but I missed that one. V @ bps, how is that for a text message? Does it motivate you to vote, and write, and feel grateful for local politics? Man, it did me! @ I had finished my dog walk and was rocking on my moist hammock at 10:30pm when I sent it out. When I learn worthwhile new things I try to act on them. The first day of early voting is today and I am wearing my I VOTED sticker! They average about a 20% turn out for elections. In the prilim election there was only a 1.5% turn out. We are counseled to VOTE. It sounds so easy. But what if you want your vote to count? Then the words GO VOTE take on a whole  truckload of portent! That means I would have to read all the malarkey from the sides trying to persuade me the way they want. Yuck. I hate malarkey. I hate advertisements of any kind at any time. I even have a hard time with the church commercials on the Mormon Channel between conference sessions, and you know what I think of General Conference.  I love LOVE having a mute button on my remote!!! But I have voted today, the first day early voting is open! YES! Thanks to FHE I knew who to vote for. I used to tell Kathyx that if she decided who we should vote for I would! So I am broken, running on 3 cylinders, but Michele Randall is hurting and in pain much of the time but one of her new cylinders includes city council.   I am so proud of her and grateful to her. Hubby, Tony Randall is on my EQ list so he got my summary text last night. Michele is gifted with gab. She expresses things clearly and intelligently. She has had fibromyalgia since 30 and she is my age. [Fibromyalgia (FM) is a medical condition characterised by chronic widespread pain and a heightened and painful response to pressure. Symptoms other than pain may occur, leading to the use of the term fibromyalgia syndrome (FMS). Other symptoms include feeling tired to a degree that normal activities are affected, sleep disturbance, and joint stiffness. Some people also report difficulty with swallowing, bowel and bladder abnormalities, numbness and tingling, and cognitive dysfunction. Fibromyalgia is frequently associated with psychiatric conditions such as depression and anxiety, and with stress-related disorders such as posttraumatic stress disorder. Not all people with fibromyalgia experience all associated symptoms.Its exact cause is unknown but is believed to involve psychological, genetic, neurobiological and environmental factors. There is evidence that environmental factors and certain genes increase the risk of developing fibromyalgia; these same genes are also associated with other functional somatic syndromes and major depressive disorder.The central symptom of fibromyalgia, namely widespread pain, appears to stem from neurochemical imbalances and the activation of inflammatory pathways in the brain which results in abnormalities in pain-processing.The brains of people with fibromyalgia show functional and structural differences from those of people without fibromyalgia, but it is unclear whether the brain anomalies cause fibromyalgia symptoms, or are the product of an unknown underlying common cause. Some research suggests that these brain anomalies may be the result of childhood stress, or prolonged or severe stress] Our host Kent Carter asked her to explain how she got involved in city politics. M n T Randall owned our ambulance service in Saint George and spent $400K fighting to keep Gold Star Ambulance from taking over. But that was their max. They threw in the towel and told their attorneys, we’re done. ~3 years ago I asked how the fight was going and she responded, Vern, you wouldn’t believe the graft and  corruption in our local government! Crud. . . even in Saint George? v- I now realize that greed seeks power so who else wants to run for office!? @ Tony Randall was part of a trucking family but now he works for a mortuary. He has had a couple of heart attacks and bypasses and weighs more than I do. He works in our Ward Library with Eric Yunker. OK this next part may be boring but I am really sensitive so I want to record some of the feelings I had about the conversations last night. @ Doug Lefler n spouse were there and any time we mentioned cars or mechanics he was an expert witness. He taught lesson 20 in HP group Sunday. Someone expressed how they love the lack of bars and pubs and saloons on every corner in Saint George and not even knowing where any are! Very different Patricia Carter said, from SLC! Doug was able to fill us in on where the worst 2 in town can be found. He admitted to hanging around with the riff raff in his mechanics shop. I teased him about where he was? and he did not take the bait. He is the guy I gave a new white shirt to last month. And he has worn it each week since conference! You would not believe how happy that makes me inside! @ 12:40pm @ Thursday, 10/22,2:31pm. Here comes my all-time favorite talk #9 ~@~ OCTOBER 1971 LAYING A FOUNDATION FOR THE MILLENNIUM @LeGrand Richards @I am very grateful to my Father in heaven for the privilege of attending another general conference of the Church with all you faithful Latter-day Saints here present this afternoon. @The Savior said, “Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.” (Matt. 4:4.) I am sure that those of us who have been privileged to attend the last three sessions of this conference have felt a realization that we have truly been fed the bread of life eternal. We have had some wonderful counsel and inspiration given to us by the servants of the Lord. @Bread will keep the body alive, but it takes more than that to keep the spirit alive. The music has been wonderful, and I would like to compliment these singers from Ricks College. I was there just a few weeks ago at their devotional, and we can’t help but thank the Lord for all the institutions of his church and what these institutions and educational opportunities are doing for our young people. @Today I thought I would like to say a few words about the kind of a foundation we have for our faith, and what we live for, and what our aims and our ambitions really are. I think of the time the beautiful temple here on this block was erected, over a hundred years ago. When the foundation was being laid, we are told that it was sixteen feet wide, and at one time President Brigham Young came and saw the workmen throwing in chipped granite. He made them take it out and put in those great granite blocks with this explanation: “We are building this temple to stand through the millennium.” Isn’t that a good thought? Each one of us ought to want to build our lives and help our families to build their lives so that we can stand through the millennium. @As we listened to Brother Romney in this morning’s session, outlining the promises of the prophets and the Savior himself regarding his coming, who is there among us who wouldn’t want to be walking in a way that would assure us that, when the trump of God shall sound and the dead shall come forth, we,

with our loved ones, can be numbered among them and share in his presence. @I think of the words of the apostle John, who was banished upon the Isle of Patmos and was shown by an angel everything from the war in heaven, when Satan was cast out, to the final winding-up scene. He saw the dead, small and great, stand before God, and the books were opened and the dead were judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works—not just their faith, not just what they say with their mouths, but by their works. And death and hell delivered up the dead which were in them and they were judged every man according to his works. (See Rev. 20:12–14.) @“… and they lived and reigned with Christ a thousand years. But the rest of the dead lived not again until the thousand years were finished. … Blessed and holy is he that hath part in the first resurrection: on such the second death hath no power, but they shall be priests of God and of Christ, and shall reign with him a thousand years.” (Rev. 20:4–6.) @Who is there whose testimony has ever been touched by the divine Spirit who would be satisfied to remain a thousand years when the trump of God should sound and they might have prepared themselves? And if it takes a sixteen-foot foundation to hold that temple for the millennium, then it takes a lot of obedience on our part to prepare ourselves for that glorious event. @The Savior said, “… strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.” (Matt. 7:14.) And so we want to be sure that we are on that straight and narrow way which leadeth to life. He said on another occasion: @“… whosoever heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock: @“And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock. @“And every one that heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man, which built his house upon the sand: @“And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell: and great was the fall of it.” (Matt. 7:24–27.) @The kind of foundation upon which we build our lives is just as important for our eternal happiness as is the kind of a foundation upon which they built that holy temple that it might stand through the millennium. @A few years ago while I was president of the Southern States Mission, I delivered a sermon one night in Quitman, Georgia, on the eternal duration of the marriage covenant and the family unit. I read from Brother Rulon S. Howells’ book Do Men Believe What Their Church Prescribes? (Deseret Book Co., 1932.) He has a chart there where he lists all the major churches and then their statement and attitude toward the major doctrinal principles, including this one about the eternal duration of the marriage covenant, and not one believes this. @I just cannot understand how they could read the Bible and yet not believe, and how marriages could be performed in the churches all over the world until death do you part. What a flimsy concept! Why don’t they go back to the time when God had finished the creation of this earth, and looked upon it and found it good, and placed Adam here, at which time he said: “It is not good that the man should be alone. …” (Gen. 2:18.) He made a helpmeet for him, saying, “… and they shall be one flesh.” (Gen. 2:24.) Now what God joins together and makes one flesh, you couldn’t separate without having two halves instead of two wholes. Jesus repeated that statement when he said: @“For this cause shall a man leave father and mother, and shall cleave to his wife: and they twain shall be one flesh? @“… what therefore God hath joined together, let not man put asunder.” (Matt. 19:5–6.) @At the close of that meeting, I stood at the door to shake hands with the people as they left, and a man came up and introduced himself to me as a Baptist minister. I said, “Did I misquote you here tonight?” “No, Mr. Richards,” he said; “it is just like you say. We don’t all believe all the things that our churches teach.” And I said, “And you don’t believe them either. Why don’t you go back and teach your people the truth? They will take it from you and they are not ready to take it from the Mormon elders yet.” He said, “I’ll see you again,” and that is all I could get from him that night. @The next time I went to that branch to hold a conference, about four months later, my coming was announced in the newspaper because I was the mission president. As I walked up to that little church, there stood that Baptist minister waiting for me. As we shook hands I said, “I would certainly be interested to know what you thought of my last sermon here.” He said, “Mr. Richards, I have been thinking about it ever since. I believe every word you said.” Then he said, “But I would like to hear the rest of it.” How could any man who has a true love for his wife and his children not want to believe that principle? @I like the little verse written by Anderson M. Baten, “To His Wife Beulah,” in which he said: @“I wed thee forever, not for now, @Not for the sham of earth’s brief years, @I wed thee for the life beyond the tears, Beyond the heart pain and clouded brow. @Love knows no grave and it shall guide us dear @When life’s spent candles flutter and burn low.” @There are people like that who believe that marriage ought to be eternal, but there is no other church in all this world, outside of our church, as far as I know, that believes in the eternal duration of the marriage covenant. @Just think what a difference it makes in our lives when we know that we are to live on and on forever and forever! I would just as soon believe that death is a complete annihilation of both body and spirit as to think that when death came it would separate me from my wife and from my children and that we would not know each other. I tell you, there wouldn’t be very much to look forward to. How could you want to live on and on forever without a continuation of the love ties that bind you together here? @We see cases of kidnapping, when children are taken away. I remember years ago, I think it was in 1932, when Colonel Lindbergh’s little boy was kidnapped and a note was left asking for $50,000. He would gladly have paid what they asked if he could have gotten his boy back again. And yet here we come along with the knowledge of life eternal. Brother Marion G. Romney quoted this morning the revelation of the Lord where he said that in the resurrection children would come forth and grow up without sin unto salvation. (See D&C 45:58.) @There are those of us who have laid away our little ones in the grave, and we had that responsibility. A little daughter was born to us over in Holland while I was president of the mission there, and we kept her until she was three and a half years old. My wife has said time and time again that she knew the angels brought that spirit to her because she felt their presence, and yet we laid her away in the grave. If we had to feel that that was the end, we would have given anything in this world to have her back again. And then we come to this great knowledge that we have in the restoration of the gospel, that she will be ours in the eternal world and we will have the joy of seeing her grow up without sin, unto salvation. Sometimes I have thought that probably some of these choice spirits did not need the experience here in mortality like other children, and that is why the Lord has seen fit to call them home. @We had four daughters before we had a son. We were sent to California to preside over a stake down there, and our boy went out with a member of the high council and his boys, and he lost his life in an accident. That is the greatest sorrow that ever came to us, but now we are getting up on the top of the ladder, so to speak, and we look forward, knowing that these love ties are intended by God, our Eternal Father, to endure throughout the eternities. It takes the sting away from death to know that we are going to meet those who are so dear and sacred to us. Thank God for this knowledge! I want to see our foundation here so laid that we will be worthy to stand with our loved ones and with the sanctified and the redeemed of our Father’s children. @Brothers and sisters, we are a blessed people. We are blessed in the privilege of living upon the earth when the gospel has been restored and having a knowledge of its truth. We are blessed to have a foundation upon which to build our faith, which makes every day a happy day as we associate with our loved ones. No wonder President McKay so often said that no success in life can



compensate for failure in the home. And the nearer men and women live unto God in keeping his commandments, the greater is the love in the home and the greater appreciation of the knowledge that that love can continue throughout the eternities that are to come. @While I was president of the Southern States Mission, a schoolteacher loaned a book to one of our Mormon children; and when the book came back, in it was an Articles of Faith card, and that schoolteacher read it. She went to her minister and said, “Why can’t our church have something like this?” The minister could not give her any satisfactory explanation, and so she wrote a letter to the Bureau of Information here in Salt Lake City. They sent her literature, they sent us her name, the missionaries called on her, and she joined the Church. @Then I think, as I read those Articles of Faith written by the Prophet Joseph Smith (and there are many other important doctrines that he didn’t list), how could anybody read those articles and then not believe that we have the truth? No other church in the world has such a foundation to build upon. In closing, I would like to recite some of them: @“We believe in God, the Eternal Father, and in His Son, Jesus Christ, and in the Holy Ghost.” [A of F 1:1] Two separate, distinct personages, the Prophet Joseph taught, with bodies of flesh and bone, and the Holy Ghost a personage of spirit. @“We believe that men will be punished for their own sins, and not for Adam’s transgression.” [A of F 1:2] There are not very many churches that believe this. @“We believe that through the Atonement of Christ, all mankind may be saved, by obedience to the laws and ordinances of the Gospel.” [A of F 1:3] Most of the preaching today is that all you have to do is to confess him as your Savior, but our statement is that we have to do what he says. @“We believe that the first principles and ordinances of the Gospel are: first, Faith in the Lord Jesus Christ; second, Repentance; third, Baptism by immersion for the remission of sins; fourth, Laying on of hands for the gift of the Holy Ghost.” [A of F 1:4] I don’t believe there is any other church in the world built upon that foundation, and yet if we turn to the sixth chapter of Hebrews, Paul says: @“… leaving the principles of the doctrine of Christ, let us go on unto perfection; not laying again the foundation of repentance from dead works, and of faith toward God. @“Of the doctrine of baptisms, and of laying on of hands, and of resurrection of the dead, and of eternal judgment.” (Heb. 6:1–2.) @That is exactly the same as we have it in our Articles of Faith. @“We believe that a man must be called of God, by prophecy, and by the laying on of hands, by those who are in authority to preach the Gospel and administer in the ordinances thereof.” [A of F 1:5] No other church believes that; they think they have authority by reading their Bibles. @“We believe in the same organization that existed in the Primitive Church,









viz., apostles, prophets, pastors, teachers, evangelists, etc.” [A of F 1:6] Paul tells us that his church is built upon the foundation of apostles and prophets, with Christ himself being the chief cornerstone; and no other church has such a foundation. @“We believe in the gift of tongues, prophecy, revelation, visions, healings, interpretation of tongues, and so forth.” [A of F 1:7] @“We believe the Bible to be the word of God as far as it is translated correctly; we also believe the Book of Mormon to be the word of God.” [A of F 1:8] And no man can believe the Bible without knowing that there is another volume of scripture that God has promised to bring forth and put with it and make them one in his hands. @“We believe all that God has revealed, all that He does now reveal, and we believe that He will yet reveal many great and important things pertaining to the Kingdom of God.” [A of F 1:9] In other words, we believe in continuous revelation and that Christ’s true church is directed by revelation today. @And then, “We believe in the literal gathering of Israel and in the restoration of the Ten Tribes; that Zion will be built upon this [the American] continent; that Christ will reign personally upon the earth; and, that the earth will be renewed and receive its paradisiacal glory.” [A of F 1:10] We know these things, and Isaiah tells us that when that day shall come there shall be a new heaven and a new earth in which the lamb and the lion shall lie down together, and we shall build houses and inhabit them, and we shall plant vineyards and eat the fruit thereof. We shall not build that another shall inhabit, but every man shall enjoy the works of his own hands, and they are the blessed of the Lord and their offspring with them. (See Isa. 65:17–23.) @No wonder we ought to want to lay a foundation comparable to that foundation upon which the holy temple stands, so we can be sure that we will stand with our loved ones through the millennium. May God help each one of us and our families so to do, I pray, and leave you my blessing, in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.~@~bps, LeGrande is famous for being the longest winded and most enthusiastic of the apostles. And it lasted until he died. He went blind and so he spoke from his memory and heart. He was almost a cartoon character to us saints and everyone smiles who knew him when they hear his name. Even Brad Newby! (old SS teacher) The next post card I send will be shokcing to you. It will include a story about Shae Langston's girlfriend. Gby, bltperryjsmilth-vj

Friday, October 2, 2015

Apologize, Ronald A. Rasband

Friday, 9:23pm,10/2/15, Good evening Brandon.Experiments, experiments. Always experimenting. We have a Chic-fil-A here in town. Someone left some  single servings of their buffalo sauce in the FHC fridge. I brought one home to see how it tasted. Since I never go out to eat, I have never had buffalo wings or anything like them. Guess what the 2nd ingredient is after peppers? I wrote the answer between the double ??’s a few~30 rows down.  I had to let you have a thoughtful guess. No just tell me the answer without guessing here! Anyway, I wasn’t impressed. I bought a case of WF macaroni n chz for 28 cents a box. I cooked one up last night and found it bland. I told BS about it and he said add salt, then he said add MSG. When he looked at buying a case with me on Monday evening he said, it is probably full of salt. 500mg. Then he bought a case like me. So he isn’t supposed to add salt and I am allergic to msg. funny bunny. @ I give people nicknames at the FHC and I often tell them what their nick names are. I met Elder big, yesterday and today. I met Elder English today. Elder big loved his new nickname. He is a young new missionary who has a brother 3 years older who is serving at the st. george temple. I suspect they are handicapped but I couldn’t see it in EB yet. Elder English watched me type like crazy for an hour and then prepare to leave. He  complimented my typing and I offered to explain it. As it turns out he taught HS English for 15 years and then went into administration for the money and missed the kids. I showed him one of your post cards to me this year and explained they switched to pcards at the Jail in December. When I showed him your writing on the other side he gaffawed. Can you read that he asked? Of course I had to tell him I can fit 600 handwritten words on a post card like your writing and 400 more if I make little blocks and fill in the front too. He was duely impressed. I told him of some of my experiments and not wanting to hand-write a whole conference talk on post cards and that I can now fit 4K words on a post card. He was fit to be tied! He was amazed and loved it. I always print off two postcard copies. The first one on FHC flimsy paper to be sure it is going to turn out and the second on heavier weight paper I provide. As you know I would use card-stock but it doesn’t print as clearly on that thickness. I gave him the first run copy from today incase he wants to tell his wife the story. He guaranteed me that he did!and valued the visual aide. Then he couldn’t help but ask about the little blue circles and references on the one I had just stamped to you. That was when I showed him my big original with all the colors and circles which he thought was wild, and explained how we were comparing Isaiah 29 with 2N27. I told him how much fun I had had doing it and of course he said: maybe for you it is fun but for me it looks tedious. That was when I told him I was an ol’ science teacher and he told me he was an ol’ English teacher. Sister Clark Sullivan asked me earlier this week, so that was the second time this week I got to explain about my correspondence. @ How clear is your conscience today? I have learned some weird things about mine these last 2 weeks. Mark says that most people can fend off offenses and not take them serious in a healthy way. As a sibling in my home of origin we became tough. We could take them and we could dish them out. But what I didn’t realize was that when my world got too stressful, too mean and hurtful I would become disociated and work like a puppeteer from a distance, pulling the strings and controlling my body and going through the motions remotely. ??vinegar?? In a SF book I finished this week there were 3 alien races and one of them had mind-reading/ telepathy skills. The first human woman spacer to have that latent ability was captured and tortured for 6 months and survived just before the story opened. Little did she know 1- she had been infected with some  time delayed diseases to wipe out the human race and 2- she had survived the mind invasion and physical torture by receding into herself deep enough the torture monster couldn’t reach her. I suspect many of us have had to have a place like that to survive some things in our lives. Perhaps you have that too. I know my sisters believe there were times when they left their tortured bodies as children and saw them from the outside. I haven’t had that as far as I can remember. @ But I discovered a defensiveness inside of me this week that kept me from having to accept blame. Later, as I tried to work it out I decided apologizing would be the fastest way to healing the situation. I did and it did. One nice thing about cell phones and texting is that you can write a text/ apology and deliver it immediately. Without facing the person, face to face. It really worked out well for me this time. @ Janice bom-teacher#1 delivered a copy of MRBalard’s Region Conference address at the end of class last night. I did her the service of excerpting the portion of a post card to you that included all I had about it last week. At work she knew someone who had a SLC connection where it was stored and so she made us both a copy. Look at the benefits of trying to help her out. I got a nice fresh clean original, although I really never wanted one. lol I will have to read it and see if maybe it isn’t more valuable than I remembered. @ As you remember I have been attending HP’s group. Sam Hales came up to me last week and said, Nice to have you here elder! and shook my hand. We like each other. @ BKP and DAB gave two of the most wonderful addresses in the last session of Oct’06 GC. I am going to send you 10 quotes from those 2 talks and see if you don’t sit back in amazement at the truths they reveal/ endorse/ share. 

BKP:1-If a well-worn yellow bandana was good enough to be an ensign to the world, then ordinary men who hold the priesthood and ordinary women and ordinary children in ordinary families, living the gospel as best they can all over the world, can shine forth as a standard, a defense, a refuge against whatever is to be poured out upon the earth

2-If we are doing the best we can, we should not become discouraged. When we fall short, as we do, or stumble, which we might, there is always the remedy of repentance and forgiveness.

3-Those faithful Brethren were not free, and we are not free, to alter the standards or to ignore them. We must live by them.It is not a cure or a comfort to simply say they do not matter. We all know they do matter, for all mankind is“instructed sufficiently that they know good from evil” (2Nephi 2:5). 

4-They understood that the stakes were to be a defense and a refuge, but at that time there was not one stake on the earth. They knew their mission was to establish stakes of Zion in every nation of the earth

.5- Now the stakes of Zion number in the thousands and are all over the world. The members number in the millions and growing. Neither of these can be held back,for this is the work of the Lord. Now members live in 160 nations and speak over 200 languages.Some live with an unspoken fear of what awaits us and the Church in the world. It grows ever darker in morality and spirituality. If we will gather into the Church, live the simple principles of the gospel, live moral lives,keep the Word of Wisdom, tend to our priesthood and other duties, then we need not live in fear. The Word of Wisdom is a key to both physical health and revelation.Avoid tea, coffee, liquor, tobacco, and narcotics. 

6-There has been no end to opposition. There are misinterpretations and misrepresentations of us and of our history, some of it mean-spirited and certainly contrary to the teachings of Jesus Christ and His gospel.Sometimes clergy, even ministerial organizations,oppose us. They do what we would never do. We do not attack or criticize or oppose others as they do us.

7-We face the challenge of raising families in the world in darkening clouds of wickedness. Some of our members are unsettled, and sometimes they wonder: Is there anyplace one can go to escape from it all? Is there another town or a state or a country where it is safe, where one can find refuge? The answer generally is no. The defense and the refuge is where our members now live.

8-a 70 Oaks:reminded us of an accord signed by 10 nations on board the battleship Missouri inTokyo Bay on September 2, 1945, which ended WorldWar II. Some of us were in Asia at the time. Said Elder(General) Oaks: “I can’t even imagine a circumstance today in which such a meeting could be held or such an accord could be signed to end the war against terrorism and wickedness in which we are engaged. It is not that kind of war.”


9-_DAB-When we believe or say we have been offended, we usually mean we feel insulted, mistreated, snubbed, or disrespected. And certainly clumsy, embarrassing, unprincipled, and mean-spirited things do occur in our interactions with other people that would allow us to take offense. However, it ultimately is impossible for another person to offend you or to offend me. Indeed,believing that another person offended us is fundamentally false. To be offended is a choice we make; it is not a condition inflicted or imposed upon us by someone or something else.

"“Let me make sure I understand what has happened to you. Because someone at church offended you, you have not been blessed by the ordinance of the sacrament. You have withdrawn yourself from the constant companionship of the Holy Ghost. Because someone at church offended you, you have cut yourself off from priesthood ordinances and the holy temple. You have discontinued your opportunity to serve others and to learn and grow. And you are leaving barriers that will impede the spiritual progress of your children, your children’s children, and the generations that will follow.” Many times people would think for a moment and then respond: “I have never thought about it that way.”

So what about my marriage? I just passed the 3rd year anniversary of my being divorced. I love relationships. You can probably tell that by my letters to you, YOU, IMPORTANT YOU! As if you could ever believe it. :) As you know I couldn’t help sending you Rachel n Leah, and now I am listening to Sarah. You are single so you probably can really relate to the loneliness. I think I just finished listening to chapter 13 and Kira, Lot’s wife has driven him crazy. She has had 5 daughters and they have lived in Sodom for all those births. She didn’t want any more children so she restricted Lot from her bed. Kira and Sarah are princesses of a kingdom called southern Ur. North Ur supports their dad as King but he has lost his city to desert thieves. Kira is spoiled and to use a phrase out of the book, she shakes off insults on all those around her like a dog shakes off water after a swim. Abram spent a year in Egypt and the Pharoah was so shocked at his patience and candor that he sends him away with flocks and herds galore. Abram returns to his land and divides the animals with Lot. Lot is so excited to leave Sodom where just the presence of a just man makes all the other men despise him, that he joins Abram in the tents and fields and they enjoy each other’s company. Even Sarah can’t stand the meanness and problems Kira causes when she leaves Sodom long after Lot and his 5 daughters and joins the sheepherders. (Shepherds) So everyone hates and can’t stand Kira. But her conniving ways promote anger and jealousy among the shepherds. Lot and Abram decide to split. Abram tells Sarah that Lot could just visit his home for a few days every month so his daughters have his support. Sarah tells Abram that Kira rips him apart if he is there or even if he is not. His daughters will be able to tell the difference says Abram. And that is where I begin to wonder? Can my children understand the difference between Kathyx who sued for divorce and Vern who never gave up trying to make the relationship work. Can they see the difference between Kathyx who was jealous of all the neighbors cars, yards, houses, incomes and Vern who was satisfied and grateful? And the worst new is. . . they have to learn how to get along with each of us. Whether we make sense to them or NOT! : ) gby-bltps-vj



Sunday, 10/4/15, ~6pm. I think I stayed awake and have listened to all 5 sessions of conference. One nice thing about it: I usually feel guilty if I don't get much done and just listen to conference sessions for a couple of days. So I tell myself, you were feeling sick and needed to recuperate, it is OK if all you did was listen to conference those 2 days.  But I don't have to make excuses on General Conference weekend! I still haven't walked the dog in a couple of days. I need to get her out and me! @ So did you commit to anything in conference? HBE did a fantastic job reminding us that we have felt the HG during conference and whatever he brought to our minds we should do. Someone else did a super job on that one Saturday as well. As Uchtdorf was talking today about desire, the first step is just to want to, I got an interesting idea. Sometimes I have a hard time believing all this is true.  I have been really impressed with my postcards to you the last couple of months because my faith and testimony have felt so strong. I mentioned that to you at our/ my visit. Well this is my idea: Just like I would love to have a crystal ball that worked or a seer stone, there are gospel miracles and teachings and stories that I wish with all my heart were true. So I thought I would make a list of things about the gospel that I would love to be true. I haven't begun it yet so at this point I am just hoping I will, but wouldn't it be fun to be able to look in your journal when you get to heaven and say, These are the things I wished for and really wanted to be true! For example: There is a young Mormon sitting in front of shelves of papyri and plates writing the BoM in an Arnold Friberg picture. Oh, how awesome it would be to me if that were true. I desire that to be true! Example #2 I would love to see JS looking in a hat with his seerstone in it reciting to Oliver Cowdery the sentences of the BoM without punctuation and not reading anything back after a break to be sure of where he left off. Now admittedly, neither of those is essential for my salvation, never the less. . . @ So I feasted and feasted during conference. I used to go work in the yard and blast GC out of the house so I could hear on Saturday. Not this year. I listened to every session just relaxing, laying back on my recliner. Usually I write in my journal during my 3 hour block of meetings on Sunday. I didn't even open my journal until the last 45 minutes of conference. @ I was a little bit indignant that a 70 would dare to create a new word and then teach us to do it. Ponderizing! But the longer I listened the more I liked it. In fact 3/4ths the way through I started clapping in excitement until my hands hurt! I was alone. @ My first scripture is Luke 4:18,19,and a portion of 21 and 23. What does the scripture say that JC quoted from Isaiah to announce his ministry? Woah, it is beautiful bps. It is sweet and gentle and loving. 19 says, To preach the acceptable year of the Lord. I hunted 4 or 5 places to find out what that might mean. And now I like it even more. I want to tease you: lds.org is so cool! Bishop Salmon told me at scout camp last year it is the only website he visited, and encouraged me to do the same. I'm not quite there yet. @ When I read J Ruben Clark Jr's, our lord of the gospels I discovered that Jesus taught a full year before he chose his apostles. He began on the first passover and didn't choose them till after the second passover. After going up to the pulpit and reading the above scripture to his townsmen he reads their minds and anticipates their question: 23. Ye will surely say unto me. . .whatsoever we have heard done in Capernaum, do also here in thy country. @He already had lots of preaching and miracles behind him. He was late proclaiming his ministry in Nazareth, and with reason. They got ticked and tried to kill him! @New topic. Weirdness #1 I picked 22 long nice dandelion leaves and soaked them for lunch today. I hoped to improve my vegetable vitamins. I ate them a couple of hours later with ham, cheese, and a yellow hot pepper. Weirdness #2 I have one molar implant. It came out the week before last when I was chewing a sticky hard cinnamon drop. I still haven't gone in to get it reattached. @ One of the new apostles is someone I fell in like with 5-8 years ago: Ronald A Rasband. At 11pm last night I sent out a 5 page text to 30-40 family and friends, owning him! This is the story I told but 160 characters is a text page so I really super condensed it. I looked up the real story afterwards because I wanted to see if I got it right! ~@~  .

The Divine Call of a Missionary

"Missionary work is a subject very close to my heart, as it is to every member of the eight Quorums of the Seventy, whom the Lord has appointed to go “before his face into every city and place, whither he himself would come.” 1Luke 10:1 Missionary work is the lifeblood of the Church and the lifesaving blessing to all who accept its message." @As Sister Rasband and I had the privilege of presiding over the New York New York North Mission several years ago, I marveled as the missionaries arrived in New York City. @ As I interviewed them on their first day in the mission, I had a profound sense of gratitude for each missionary. I felt that their call to our mission was divinely designed for them and for me as their mission president. @After finishing our mission assignment, I was called by President Gordon B. Hinckley to serve as a Seventy in the Church. Part of my early training as a new General Authority included an opportunity to sit with members of the Twelve as they assigned missionaries to serve in one of the 300-plus missions of this great Church. @With the encouragement and permission of President Henry B. Eyring, I would like to relate to you an experience, very special to me, which I had with him several years ago when he was a member of the Quorum of the Twelve. Each Apostle holds the keys of the kingdom and exercises them at the direction and assignment of the President of the Church. Elder Eyring was assigning missionaries to their fields of labor, and as part of my training, I was invited to observe.
I joined Elder Eyring early one morning in a room where several large computer screens had been prepared for the session. There was also a staff member from the Missionary Department who had been assigned to assist us that day. @First, we knelt together in prayer. I remember Elder Eyring using very sincere words, asking the Lord to bless him to know “perfectly” where the missionaries should be assigned. The word “perfectly” said much about the faith that Elder Eyring exhibited that day. @As the process began, a picture of the missionary to be assigned would come up on one of the computer screens. As each picture appeared, to me it was as if the missionary were in the room with us. Elder Eyring would then greet the missionary with his kind and endearing voice: “Good morning, Elder Reier or Sister Yang. How are you today?” @He told me that in his own mind he liked to think of where the missionaries would conclude their mission. This would aid him to know where they were to be assigned. Elder Eyring would then study the comments from the bishops and stake presidents, medical notes, and other issues relating to each missionary. @He then referred to another screen which displayed areas and missions across the world. Finally, as he was prompted by the Spirit, he would assign the missionary to his or her field of labor. @From others of the Twelve, I have learned that this general method is typical each week as Apostles of the Lord assign scores of missionaries to serve throughout the world. @Having served as a missionary in my own country in the Eastern States Mission a number of years ago, I was deeply moved by this experience. Also, having served as a mission president, I was grateful for a further witness in my heart that the missionaries I had received in New York City were sent to me by revelation. @After assigning a few missionaries, Elder Eyring turned to me as he pondered one particular missionary and said, “So, Brother Rasband, where do you think this missionary should go?” I was startled! I quietly suggested to Elder Eyring that I did not know and that I did not know I could know! He looked at me directly and simply said, “Brother Rasband, pay closer attention and you too can know!” With that, I pulled my chair a little closer to Elder Eyring and the computer screen, and I did pay much closer attention! @A couple of other times as the process moved along, Elder Eyring would turn to me and say, “Well, Brother Rasband, where do you feel this missionary should go?” I would name a particular mission, and Elder Eyring would look at me thoughtfully and say, “No, that’s not it!” He would then continue to assign the missionaries where he had felt prompted. @As we were nearing the completion of that assignment meeting, a picture of a certain missionary appeared on the screen. I had the strongest prompting, the strongest of the morning, that the missionary we had before us was to be assigned to Japan. I did not know that Elder Eyring was going to ask me on this one, but amazingly he did. I rather tentatively and humbly said to him, “Japan?” Elder Eyring responded immediately, “Yes, let’s go there.” And up on the computer screen the missions of Japan appeared. I instantly knew that the missionary was to go to the Japan Sapporo Mission. @Elder Eyring did not ask me the exact name of the mission, but he did assign that missionary to the Japan Sapporo Mission. @Privately in my heart I was deeply touched and sincerely grateful to the Lord for allowing me to experience the prompting to know where that missionary should go. @At the end of the meeting Elder Eyring bore his witness to me of the love of the Savior, which He has for each missionary assigned to go out into the world and preach the restored gospel. He said that it is by the great love of the Savior that His servants know where these wonderful young men and women, senior missionaries, and senior couple missionaries are to serve. I had a further witness that morning that every missionary called in this Church, and assigned or reassigned to a particular mission, is called by revelation from the Lord God Almighty through one of these, His servants. @~@ Wasn't that totally awesome Brandon? If you need more time to process it and see what you feel and think, take it now. Don't read on because I am going to blab about what it meant to me. @ Halt, Stop, go back! Do not proceed. Single lane, one-way traffic! @ Was that a good enough warning? Blab: 1- I figured it was way too  sacred for the first presidency to share how missionaries were assigned. I served in Guatemala and have always wondered how that assignment was made. 2- Rasband is humble. He has no clue about how HBE is doing it! It is like Elder Eyring is magic as far as Rasband can tell. 3- HBE is gentle and inviting. He includes RAR. He lets RAR try over and over again with recuperation times in between and takes advantage of the opportunity to teach RAR.  Eyring could have just hauled along and done it all himself. 4- The power is real. These are good wholesome, pure apostle and future apostle and they can tap into the power of the HG and therefore the mind and will of God to make assignments to individual servants going into the mission field. 5- It can be learned. And when both of you are feeling the same thing it is a witness to your soul that it is the right spirit, the Holy Spirit you are tapping into. 6- That paper signed by the prophet that comes to the missionary is a revelation from God, through a member of the 12 to you! I keep mine with my patriarchal blessing. 7- God can do his own work. I think it was Elder DAB that bore witness that he has watched the Holy Ghost reveal things to the twelve that allowed them to manage HF Kingdom on this earth beyond a man's ability. Dear Elder Bednar, his closing address gave tribute to each of the 6 apostles who have passed since he became an apostle. He was so unintentionally funny when he said he has been waiting 10 years for there to be an apostle younger than he is! 8-With the encouragement and permission of President Henry B. Eyring, I would like to relate to you an experience, very special to me, RAR got permission and even encouragement to share this story. I first heard it in our Regional Conference & I was flabbergasted. 9- Evidence of the love of the Savior, which He has for each missionary assigned to go out into the world and preach the restored gospel. I cannot fathom how HF can know each one of us and what he wants us to become. I cannot fathom that there are no such things as coincidences. I am still stuck in my old science teaching mode of probabilities and possibilities. I just can't fathom a divine personal plan for me, individually. Now I will admit that I believe he has guided my life up to now. 6 decades of guidance and care. But that he can/  does understand my everyday, and every effort blows my mind. @ I will just sit back and keep talking to him like a friend and hope and trust, even if I can't believe.  This is one of those desire examples. @ I notice when I get thrills/ chills, tears, and confirmations during GC. But I was shocked when I googled Henry B Eyring after conference and saw my picture on the bottom entry! What in the world was I doing there! Last Jan 14, 2015 I used his name in the title of my blog. I had not put a B. but just a B for his middle initial. I was shocked and proud! I went and read the blog and it was a good one with a bunch of his best quotes all color coded from his talk. I am hoping that the testimony I bear and the truths  I share will be of value to others in the future. @ So many people are so shy or too untrusting to post anything. If this helps spread the gospel of Jesus Christ in any way I will be so pleased! 8:04pm









Thursday, October 1, 2015

Gethsemane seen by ourselves? Lawrence Wortham



speaker: Lawrence Wortham -“our personal garden of Gethsemane” location: 860 N. Fairway Dr., Washington, Sunday, September 27, 2015
hey Bruce Randall, I am at a fireside for 45+ singles in Green Springs. As you know you and I are both single. There is a website called Dixie singles that outlines all the activities for each week/month. I learned about it long ago but it seems too boring to look things up. I needed a real life person to ask and remind me. Rachel Gingell’s does that by means of text messages four or five times a week. So I came tonight because of the reminder today. I signed up for the reminders this last week.@ Wouldn’t it be cool to spend a day or week with Jesus Christ before he turned the age of 30. How could he live a perfect life? I would love to watch it be done even in his/this plain old world. @Jesse Bird in Sunday school today, asked how long we can live perfectly. An hour? @I have a son, Louis, who lost his St. George job in February and started in Las Vegas in July. There are 750 employees at the Hilton. He is in sales. I left him for, four-minute voicemails today. He can’t attend church and he has hours on the road each day. I once traveled two hours a day to work. He tells me he travels four. Since we had a two-year-old birthday yesterday and the baby blessing today there was lots to tell him about. I really only covered one story with a bunch of sidelights. @I have my youngest son Michael’ 92 working at the Centerville Walmart. I wanted to leave him a voice mail as well, but he does not have his voicemail set up yet. I told him about it last month but no luck fixing it yet. I wrote him with text instead. Michael J needed my signature for a loan this summer. I have gotten him to text me once a week if I remind him until he does. He has fallen for his first love. A Samoan girl named Shy (Xi) with two little boys. He loves little kids! @Our speaker at this fireside thinks we can all view Gethsemane. By revelation we can see it and experience it. He says Peter, James and John were the three to accompany him and witness it but Matthew, Mark and Luke are the ones who wrote it and shared it with us. Not the three who were there! Matthew, Mark, Luke experienced it by revelation just like we can. What? (I can’t quite agree, yet.) He also says that Adam came to Jesus Christ in the garden of Gethsemane to strengthen him and showed to Jesus Christ all of us,Us(his seed) looking on, behind Peter, James, and John, with our gratitude for his atoning sacrifice. Isaiah and Abinadi both explained that Christ would see his seed, us, then, during that hour. In my testimony in our ward today I reread two verses we had just sung from page 9 the King of glory speaks to earth again. Same with Angels, verse 2, I asked the kids if they learn that at school? Nope, but isn’t it wonderful! In the past I have wondered if the Bible is true. Why does the whole Christian world love and value the Bible? Answer: because it isn’t fake… It is real! God bless you – Bruce Randall – Vern Jensen PS. This fireside giver had Hodgkin’s lymphoma cancer last year. Jerry Buys, in our ward, is the longest lived H Lymphome patient in the world, he tells me. No one lives this long with HL. @ (Lawrence W) He was transferred to the garden of Gethsemane in his prayer/dream. He followed the three apostles and watched. Jesus Christ had to do it alone. “I saw how we gave him strength and there were others[all of you] behind me”. Jesus Christ said, to us, “my brothers and my sisters, not for me but for you.” “We were with him every moment. We strengthened him every step of the way.” I(LW) knew that I alone would have to experience the Hodgkin’s lymphoma pain. But we have company. I had company: Jesus Christ, Heavenly Father and the Holy Ghost.~@~v-So what do you think of that idea? I found it so weird! I made two efforts to visit with him after the meeting/fireside. He had 5 musical numbers mixed in and used a projector for scriptures and pictures, including his radiation treatment glowing in his chest from last year. He was a little guy but the soloist accompanied with violin and piano filled the chapel over and over again with stark beauty. We were silent and captured, except for me writing the above. : ) @ When I captured Lawrence I thanked him and told him how beautiful it was and how thoughtful it had made me. I remember an apostle back at the turn of the 19th century telling of a similar experience and aske who it was. Neither of us could remember his name. 10 minutes later I finally recalled it: Orson F Whitney. I found him and repeated it twice and he nodded. I looked it up when I got home and also found a summary of his life and apostleship. I asked my friend BS if he thought it was possible? He said that if it was LW should not be sharing it. That is something too sacred to share. I asked Elder T Minardi about sharing things like that when he visited me at the FHC, Tuesday. He shared that he had, had some very sacred experiences in his life that he seldom shares but when prompted, when he feels inspired to he occassionally shares them. So now the ultimate question: Is that a revelation I could humble myself for and seek? Lawrence encouraged us to strive for it and when the time is right and we are meek enough we can experience it too. He called it a gift because of his extreme condition and finally wanting to know why? What do you think? I have two friends that have died and come back and shared and remembered some of their experiences with me. I shared Visions of Glory by John Pontius with them last year. A book I wanted to be part of the sealed portion of the BoM! I was so disappointed to find out that proported to be nonfiction, it was really fiction. Fake! Sad! Just another money  making scheme. Ouch! And focussed on Mormon’s. @This is a big old world. If all open-heart surgery patients die and visit heaven and then come back, there are people in every ward who have been there and can testify. Two in my ward that I know of. NDE- near death experiences is what the world calls them. Hugh Nibley had one at 26yo, during an appendectomy, which clinched his testimony for his life! p.115 Hugh Nibley A Consecrated Life .Tuesday, 9/29/15,3:48pm, Hello Brandon, I was getting tired and starting to fall asleep indexing, so I often wake up when I start writing you, so I am going to try it. You are loved, I think you are wonderful. Did you notice how I avoided saying I love You? Lol @ I am flying high. Optimistic, flattered and thoughtful. Last week I felt like I was desperate to go fishing. I spent 10$ on treble hooks, size 16 and about $5 on weights. It seems so silly to me to buy expensive lead weights when I could just tie a rock to my line for free! Who needs to spend money on weights? @ Anyway, I debated with myself each day last week if it would be the day I went. Each night I would tel myself, I can go anytime, there is no urgency. If there are other things I do here all the better because as the water cools the better the fishing. Otter Creek Res. Is at 32% capacity and I am curious about what that looks like. How the shoreline has changed. @ I read that Panguitch is starting to refill slowly. But not Otter Creek yet. Of course the science teacher in me is asking why? @ You have probably heard about Solarlunar cycles. It was proposed as a theory in 1930. Fish bite more at certain times of the day. I have hunted and hunted for an easy to understand chart that just fell into my lap last spring. Day after day I have phrased questions on Google, asking what is the best time of the day to fish, and every other variety related to that but haven't had any luck. Hours and hours! I didn't give up. I knew it was there somewhere and I finally, Finally, FINALLY found Solarlunar cycles last night. I don't like lists and calendars with numbers as much as I like graphs showing the highs and low points of the day. Rather than be dependent on that particular website I decided to study to see how the charts are made. There are other factors such as cloud cover, and wind and rain and temperature all influence a particular locality and might even be more important on certain days and conditions, like a caddis fly hatch etc.. Ok, you get to listen to what I learned: The best hours of the day are when the tied is up and down. That means the moon is a major influence. When the moon is directly above or its opposite, directly below, those are the periods of most feeding activity in trout. (and deer and bass etc.) The full moon at midnight and the new moon at midnight are the best times of the month, out of all the particular days. So am I excited to understand this? Man, am I ever! I heard a number of times that there are more crimes and murders committed on full moon nights and that they increase the police force. But that was just gossip, wive's tails, myth. Scientific studies show that the spikes in crime are unrelated to a full or new moon. Relief! It made me feel unsafe and insecure during that time of the month during the years that I believed it. Don't you hate being caught having believed a superstition!!!? Yuck. That is the ultimate insult to a scientist like me. I got caught in a superstition! Now the cool part. The fish bite best when the moon is directly above and below whether we can see it or not. And it happens twice a day. There are smaller activity peaks at the quarter day points but not as big as the half day points. Sunrise and Sunset with the changing light are also of major influence of course. But I have fished on Otter Creek for 24 hours a day and kept track of when the biting happened and didn't and there were some sunrises and sunsets that had no increase in biting. Until I had a big fish take my 5th pole out to troll with the boats, : (, I had 5 measuring devices for taking readings. If you can't understand what I just said don't worry about it. It was mostly for my own entertainment. Lol. @ I haven't purchased the Powerbait that works the best yet. $4 for 1 ounce just seems so extravagant to me. But it needs to float up off the bottom. Which means it has to have fat or grease or oil in it because oil floats, it is less dense than water. That's why marshmallows are added to the worm hook too. To float it off the bottom. In southern Utah was have crawdads in all the warm waters which steal your bait and pull gently on your line if you do not get it up off the bottom. @ Guess how many flavors of Powerbait there are? 12! Plus now you can get them with glitter for another dollar! Plus they have floating power pellets as well in 10 plus flavors! @So that is about 30 or 40 different bottles you can buy at Walmart! Which one should you buy? The poor fisherman!! If you buy one bottle of each flavor and variation it would be about $150!! So frustrating! And the ones that look good to humans, might not be the ones that look and smell good to fish! What a scam! What a corner on the market! So sickening. @ Brad Leany got so frustrated with me when he would ask me what I was fishing with and I would answer, worm or worm and marshmallow. “Vern, they don't always bite on worms!” Now I am asking myself if I should even bother taking worms? Guess not. @Now the real reason I told you all of this besides, my being fascinated and absorbed with it, IS that I believe most of my angst about needing to fish last week was an emotional escape from feeling guilty about being reproved by the Bishop the Sunday before. I just wanted to escape and be successful and some how regain my emotional/ spiritual equilibrium. In the past when I am going through those stages I just have to buck up and face life and keep my classes taught and my lessons prepared. But now a little blip in my spirituality really causes havock about how I feel. But as you know I really didn't sin/ transgress knowingly. @ So why am I thanking HF for feeling at equilibrium again this week. Answer: I confessed before the ward. @ I noticed Sunday when I saw Bishop Quincy Adams I felt chagrin again like the week before. I kept close tabs on him as he came in and visited with one family and another, from this side of the chapel to the other side and then up to the pulpit to conduct. I was worried he might look me in the eye. And I sit on the top row on the stand to conduct the music. . .after I asked myself why I was feeling that I tried to form a phrase or sentence that would release the pressure/ tension/ embarrassment I was feeling again. I decided I would say, I went to a baby blessing this morning and I have given up taking pictures in church. Sadly, once I was prepared I didn't get a chance to use it. So I bore my testimony second and repeated the words from his testimony about gratitude for repentance. It was one of the funnest testimonies I have ever shared. There were some little Jesse Bird Family children sitting at the front who were watching me and paying close attention. I switched to little child mode and showed and explained on my fingers how we have 12 apostles right now but next week we will have 15 again. One of the reasons I felt it was good to share with my ward is because there may be others that get lulled into a sense of comfortability taking pictures in church like I did. Plus, it wasn't a sin so odious that I really needed to be feeling the deep shame I had fought all week. @ @bps, I'm not sure how I am going to send these next 3 talks. They came in exactly this order and they each seemed to build in spirit. So I somehow want you to experience what I did as I listened.vj @Behold Your Little Ones @Margaret S. Lifferth @First Counselor in the Primary General Presidency @While I have been serving in this calling, I have made some new friends. Eliza can sing many Primary songs. Lucas is learning the Articles of Faith in Spanish. Caitlyn is shy but curious. I sat by Martha in Primary, and she wrapped her arm through mine. These children reflect the light of the gospel in their faces. @Who are the children in your home or in your neighborhood? Look at them. Think of them. The Savior teaches

us that to enter the kingdom of God, we must become as a child, “submissive, meek, humble, patient, [and] full of love” (Mosiah 3:19). @But however full of faith children come to us, they face the challenges of a fallen world. What does it take to help these children keep the light of faith in their eyes? We know that nothing can replace a righteous family in the life of a child. But in today’s world, children will need not only a devoted mother and father, but they will need each of us to protect, teach, and love them. @Brothers and sisters, protecting children means that we provide an environment that invites the Spirit into their lives and validates it in their hearts. That automatically eliminates any form of indifference, neglect, abuse, violence, or exploitation. @And while conditions of depravity are more serious, we also protect children from other detrimental conditions, such as expectations that are too high or too low, overindulgence, over scheduling, and self-centeredness. Either extreme dulls a child’s ability to identify, trust, and be guided by the Holy Ghost. @Children are open to gospel truths more than at any other time, and protected childhood is literally a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to teach and strengthen children to choose the right. @It’s easy to know what to teach. The scriptures and our prophets are clear about what to teach our children. Nephi summarizes it in this verse, “And we talk of Christ, we rejoice in Christ, we preach of Christ, we prophesy of Christ … that our children may know to what source they may look for a remission of their sins” (2 Nephi 25:26). @Knowing that we teach of Christ and His gospel, how do we do it? Begin by following the counsel of our prophets and making time in our homes for family prayer, scripture study, and family home evening. Have we heard that counsel so often that it seems too simple? Or are we so busy that adding one more thing feels too complex? I testify that even when our family worship seems less than effective, obedience alone invites the blessings of the Lord. @In fact, personal obedience and example in every part of our lives are the ultimate gospel lessons for children. So study, learn, and apply the gospel. We cannot teach principles that we do not know and that we do not live. Who we are and what is in our heart are discerned by children more quickly than we think. @So love the children. I remember feeling loved as a child, and because of that, it was easy for me to believe that the Savior loved me too. Children thrive in a home where parents understand their “sacred duty to rear their children in love and righteousness” @But all of us can help. Notice the children around you, and learn their names. And then invite, listen, affirm, guide, build, serve, and share testimony. Your love can help bring a child to the love of the Savior. @Vasily is a child who spends much of his time in the streets and is not supported by his parents in his search for truth. He found a small branch of the Church in his town, and he came to every event held at the church. He also brought his three younger brothers to church, and other friends joined him in Primary. In fact, at one time, the largest Primary in that area was made up of these little boys who are not members of the Church. They were drawn to the truth, and the light of the gospel began to be reflected in their faces. They were welcomed, protected, taught, and loved by all the members of that little branch, including youth, young adults, missionaries, teachers, and priesthood leaders. Think of the children in your neighborhood or Primary class. Who are the children in your branch or ward? Is there one, like Vasily, who needs you? @When I think of these little boys and children like them, I take great hope from the account of the Savior’s visit to the American continent. Remember that before the Savior’s appearance, there were tempests, earthquakes, fires, and three days of profound darkness (see 3 Nephi 8). I have often thought about the children who experienced these events. And I can only imagine the fear and concern in the hearts of the parents. @And then the Savior appeared and commanded the multitude “that their little children should be brought” to Him (3 Nephi 17:11). How eager those parents must have been to bring their children to the Savior. And then they watched as the Savior wept over their children, blessed them one by one, prayed unto the Father for them, and called down angels to minister unto them (see 3 Nephi 17:21, 24). This account reminds us that it is the Savior who is the great protector, the ultimate teacher, and the eternal source of love and healing. @As the darkness of this day surrounds us, we are also commanded to bring our children to the Savior, and as Elder Ballard has reminded us, “we are the ones God has appointed to encircle today’s children with love and the fire of faith and an understanding of who they are” @Brothers and sisters, as a mother and a Primary leader, I know this work with children is not easy. Protecting, teaching, and loving children can be demanding, often discouraging, sometimes exhausting, and occasionally the fruits of our efforts are long delayed. But it is precisely because it is not easy to bring children to the Savior that we must come to Him ourselves. @As we seek Him and His Spirit to help us, we will see a miracle. We will recognize that our own hearts are changing and we too are becoming “submissive, meek, humble, patient, [and] full of love” (Mosiah 3:19). We too will reflect the light of the gospel in our own countenance. We will come to understand these words of the Savior: “And whoso shall receive one such little child in my name receiveth me” (Matthew 18:5). @I love the Savior and testify of His redeeming power for me and you and for our




children, in the name of Jesus Christ, amen. @The Great and Wonderful Love” @Anthony D. Perkins @Of the First Quorum of the Seventy @Children in pure faith proclaim, “We believe in God, the Eternal Father, and in His Son, Jesus Christ, and in the Holy Ghost.” But sometimes youth and adults do not feel the power of this simple declaration. @Satan is the “enemy to all righteousness”; thus he plants doubts about the nature of the Godhead and our relationship with Them. Jesus Christ prophesied that in the last days even the very elect would be deceived. Consider three examples of how Lucifer is “laying traps and snares to catch the holy ones of God.” @The snare of false inadequacy. A faithful young person feels unable to meet the expectations of others. At home and school, she is rarely praised and often criticized. The popular media tells her she is not beautiful enough or smart enough. Every day this righteous sister questions whether she is an individual worthy of Heavenly Father’s love, the Savior’s atoning sacrifice, or the Spirit’s constant guidance. @ The snare of exaggerated imperfection. An outstanding missionary feels incapable of meeting the expectations of God. In his mind, this worthy elder imagines a stern Heavenly Father bound to irrevocable justice, a Savior capable of cleansing others’ transgressions but not this elder’s own, and a Holy Ghost unwilling to accompany an imperfect person. @ The snare of



needless guilt. A middle-aged woman is a devoted mother, a loving friend, a faithful Church servant, and a frequent temple patron. But in her heart, this sister cannot forgive herself of sins committed years ago that she has repented of and fully resolved with priesthood leaders. She doubts that her life will ever be acceptable to the Lord and has lost hope of eternal life in Heavenly Father’s presence. @If you have any thoughts and feelings similar to these good Saints, I invite you to become as a little child and feel again “the great and wonderful love made manifest by the Father and the Son in the coming of the Redeemer into the world.” Childlike faith in the perfect love of Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ will “divide asunder” Satan’s snares of inadequacy, imperfection, and guilt. @Proverbs teaches, “For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he.” May I suggest—in addition to consistent prayers, scripture study, and Church and temple attendance—five changes to your thoughts and heart to more fully feel the tender love of God. @ First, see yourself as a precious child of a loving Father in Heaven. Our children with confidence sing, “I am a child of God, and he has sent me here.” Little children feel and know what perhaps you have forgotten. You are the beloved son or daughter of Heavenly Father, created “in his own image,” and


of immense value—so much so that Jesus Christ gave His life for you. @God the Father is merciful and has infinite love for you despite your faults. Only the voice of Satan will cause you to feel of no value. In contrast, the Holy Ghost will cause you to feel “godly sorrow” unto repentance in a manner that fills you with hope of positive change. @When you feel worthless, “remember the worth of souls is great in the sight of God.” Refrain from repeatedly thinking or saying negative words about yourself—there is a clear difference between humility and humiliation. Identify and use your unique talents rather than dwelling on your weaknesses. @ Second, place your burdens on Jesus Christ. When you feel overwhelmed by expectations and challenges, do not fight the battle alone. Follow the example of small children, and drop to your knees in prayer. @Jesus Christ has commanded us, “Look unto me in every thought; doubt not, fear not.” Doubt, fear, and worry indicate we have taken all of life’s burdens and anxieties on ourselves. When plagued by thoughts that you are inadequate, confidently say, “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” Then as you “cheerfully do all things that lie in [your] power,” you can rest assured that the Lord will do the remainder and things will work out all right. @The Savior promised, “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” As you “cast [your] burden upon the Lord,” you will feel the peace of the Spirit. @ Third, forgive yourself of sins and imperfections. Heavenly Father is not expecting you to become completely perfect in this life. He knew His children would make mistakes as they learned from experience in mortality. But “God so loved the world” that His plan of happiness provided a merciful Savior. @Jesus said, “I, the Lord, will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to forgive all men.” Start with yourself, and forgive others as well. If God will not remember our repented-of sins, then why should we? Avoid wasting time and energy reliving the past. @To forgive yourself and others, you must trust the Atonement of Jesus Christ. The prophet Zenock prayed, “Thou art angry, O Lord, with this people, because they will not understand thy mercies which thou hast bestowed upon them because of thy Son.” Our Father in Heaven is saddened when we limit the power of His Son’s atoning sacrifice. As you exercise faith in Jesus Christ, you can have your guilt “swept away.” If guilt remains after sincere repentance, believe your priesthood leaders when they declare you to be worthy. @ Fourth, sustain hope of eternal life. If you imagine that your prior sins, character flaws, and poor decisions prevent you from receiving all of God’s blessings, consider the experience of Alma the Elder. Referring to his younger years as an immoral priest for the wicked King Noah, Alma admitted, “I myself was caught in a snare, and did many things which were abominable in the sight of the Lord, which caused me sore repentance.” Yet Alma’s repentance was so complete and Christ’s Atonement so infinite that Alma became a prophet and was promised eternal life. As you do your best to be obedient and repentant, you too can receive a place in the celestial kingdom through the Atonement and grace of Jesus Christ. @ Fifth, find joy each day. One source of joy is service, for when you are busy helping others, you will have less capacity to agonize over your own shortcomings. The Savior wisely taught, “For whosoever will save his life shall lose it; but whosoever shall lose his life for my sake and the gospel’s, the same shall save it.” @You will experience greater joy in life as you eradicate adult-onset pessimism and substitute childlike optimism. Optimism is a virtue that allows us to see God’s loving hand in the details of our life. A favorite hymn counsels, “Count your many blessings; see what God hath done.” @I testify of Heavenly Father, who in great and wonderful love reaches out to each of His children. I bear witness of Jesus Christ, who is “mighty to save” us from our inadequacies, imperfections, and sins. I bear testimony of the Holy Ghost, who will accompany the imperfect yet penitent soul. To you faithful and worthy Saints who struggle with latter-day snares of the devil, 30 “may God grant unto you that your burdens may be light, through the joy of his Son.” In the sacred name of Jesus Christ, amen. @The Gathering of Scattered Israel @Russell M. Nelson @Of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles @My beloved brothers and sisters, thank you for your faith, your devotion, and your love. We share an enormous responsibility to be who the Lord wants us to be and to do what He wants us to do. We are part of a great movement—the gathering of scattered Israel. I speak of this doctrine today because of its unique importance in God’s eternal plan. @Abrahamic Covenant @Anciently, the Lord blessed Father Abraham with a promise to make his posterity a chosen people. References to this covenant occur throughout the scriptures. Included were promises that the Son of God would come through Abraham’s lineage, that certain lands would be inherited, that nations and kindreds of the earth would be blessed through his seed, and more. While some aspects of that covenant have already been fulfilled, the Book of Mormon teaches that this Abrahamic covenant will be fulfilled only in these latter days! It also emphasizes that we are among the covenant people of the Lord. Ours is the privilege to participate personally in the fulfillment of these promises. What an exciting time to live! @Israel Became Scattered @As descendants of Abraham, the tribes of ancient Israel had access to priesthood authority and blessings of the gospel, but eventually the people rebelled. They killed the prophets and were punished by the Lord. Ten tribes were carried captive into Assyria. From there they became lost to the records of mankind. (Obviously, the ten tribes are not lost to the Lord.) Two remaining tribes continued a short time and then, because of their rebellion, were taken captive into Babylon. When they returned, they were favored of the Lord, but again they honored Him not. They rejected and vilified Him. A loving but grieving Father vowed, “I will scatter you among the heathen,” and that He did—into all nations. @Israel to Be Gathered @God’s promise for the gathering of scattered Israel was equally emphatic. Isaiah, for example, foresaw that in the latter days the Lord would send “swift messengers” to these people who were so “scattered and peeled.” @This promise of the gathering, woven all through the fabric of the scriptures, will be fulfilled just as surely as were the prophecies of the scattering of Israel. @The Church of Jesus Christ in the Meridian of Time and the Apostasy @Prior to His Crucifixion, the Lord Jesus Christ had established His Church. It included apostles, prophets, seventies, teachers, and so forth. And the Master sent His disciples into the world to preach His gospel. @After a time the Church as established by the Lord fell into spiritual decay. His teachings were altered; His ordinances were changed. The Great Apostasy came as had been foretold by Paul, who knew that the Lord would not come again “except there come a falling away first.” @This Great Apostasy followed the pattern that had ended each previous dispensation. The very first was in the time of Adam. Then came dispensations of Enoch, Noah, Abraham, Moses, and others. Each prophet had a divine commission to teach of the divinity and the doctrine of the Lord Jesus Christ. In each age these teachings were meant to help the people. But their disobedience resulted in apostasy. Thus, all previous dispensations were limited in time and location. They were limited in time because each ended in apostasy. They were limited in location to a relatively small segment of planet earth. @The Restoration of All Things @Thus a complete restoration was required. God the Father and Jesus Christ called upon the Prophet Joseph Smith to be the prophet of this dispensation. All divine powers of previous dispensations were to be restored through him. This dispensation of the fulness of times would not be limited in time or in location. It would not end in apostasy, and it would fill the world. @The Gathering of Israel—an Integral Part of the Restoration of All Things @As prophesied by Peter and Paul, all things were to be restored in this dispensation. Therefore, there must come, as part of that restoration, the long-awaited gathering of scattered Israel. It is a necessary prelude to the Second Coming of the Lord. @This doctrine of the gathering is one of the important teachings of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. The Lord has


declared: “I give unto you a sign … that I shall gather in, from their long dispersion, my people, O house of Israel, and shall establish again among them my Zion.” The coming forth of the Book of Mormon is a sign to the entire world that the Lord has commenced to gather Israel and fulfill covenants He made to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. We not only teach this doctrine, but we participate in it. We do so as we help to gather the elect of the Lord on both sides of the veil. @The Book of Mormon is central to this work. It declares the doctrine of the gathering. It causes people to learn about Jesus Christ, to believe His gospel, and to join His Church. In fact, if there were no Book of Mormon, the promised gathering of Israel would not occur. @To us the honored name of Abraham is important. It is mentioned in more verses of scriptures of the Restoration than in all verses of the Bible. Abraham is linked to all members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. The Lord reaffirmed the Abrahamic covenant in our day through the Prophet Joseph Smith. In the temple we receive our ultimate blessings, as the seed of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. @The Dispensation of the Fulness of Times @This dispensation of the fulness of times was foreseen by God as the time to gather, both in heaven and on earth. Peter knew that after a period of apostasy, a restoration would come. He, who had been with the Lord on the Mount of Transfiguration, declared: @“Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord; … @“Whom the heaven must receive until the times of restitution of all things, which God hath spoken by the mouth of all his holy prophets since the world began.” @In modern times the Apostles Peter, James, and John were sent by the Lord with “the keys of [His] kingdom, and a dispensation of the gospel for the last times; and for the fulness of times,” in which He would “gather together in one all things, both which are in heaven, and which are on earth.” @In the year 1830 the Prophet Joseph Smith learned of a heavenly messenger named Elias, who possessed keys to bring to pass “the restoration of all things.” @Six years later the Kirtland Temple was dedicated. After the Lord accepted that holy house, heavenly messengers came with priesthood keys. Moses appeared 2 “and committed … the keys of the gathering of Israel from the four parts of the earth, and the leading of the ten tribes from the land of the north. @“After this, Elias appeared, and committed the dispensation of the gospel of Abraham, saying that in us and our seed all generations after us should be blessed.” @Then Elijah the prophet came and proclaimed, “Behold, the time has fully come, which was spoken of by the mouth of Malachi—testifying that he [Elijah] should be sent, before the great and dreadful day of the Lord come—to turn the hearts of the fathers to the children, and the children to the fathers, lest the whole earth be smitten with a curse.” @These events occurred on April 3, 1836, and thus fulfilled Malachi’s prophecy. Sacred keys of this dispensation were restored. @Gathering of Souls on the Other Side of the Veil @Mercifully, the invitation to “come unto Christ” can also be extended to those who died without a knowledge of the gospel. Part of their preparation requires earthly efforts of others. We gather pedigree charts, create family group sheets, and do temple work vicariously to gather individuals unto the Lord and into their families. @To Participate in the Gathering: A Commitment by Covenant @Here on earth, missionary work is crucial to the gathering of Israel. The gospel was to be taken first to the “lost sheep of the house of Israel.” Consequently, servants of the Lord have gone forth proclaiming the Restoration. In many nations our missionaries have searched for those of scattered Israel; they have hunted for them “out of the holes of the rocks”; and they have fished for them as in ancient days. @The choice to come unto Christ is not a matter of physical location; it is a matter of individual commitment.








People can be “brought to the knowledge of the Lord” without leaving their homelands. True, in the early days of the Church, conversion often meant emigration as well. But now the gathering takes place in each nation. The Lord has decreed the establishment of Zion in each realm where He has given His Saints their birth and nationality. Scripture foretells that the people “shall be gathered home to the lands of their inheritance, and shall be established in all their lands of promise.” “Every nation is the gathering place for its own people.” The place of gathering for Brazilian Saints is in Brazil; the place of gathering for Nigerian Saints is in Nigeria; the place of gathering for Korean Saints is in Korea; and so forth. Zion is “the pure in heart.” Zion is wherever righteous Saints are. Publications, communications, and congregations are now such that nearly all members have access to the doctrines, keys, ordinances, and blessings of the gospel, regardless of their location. @Spiritual security will always depend upon how one lives, not where one lives. Saints in every land have equal claim upon the blessings of the Lord. @This work of Almighty God is true. He lives. Jesus is the Christ. This is His Church, restored to accomplish its divine destiny, including the promised gathering of Israel. President Gordon B. Hinckley is God’s prophet today. I so testify in the name of Jesus Christ, amen. Oct'06@~@ ~ Thursday, 10/1/15,6:44pm How patient are you Brandon? Can you face your frustration and try anyway? Can you face your frustration and write me? Write down your beginning time and end time each time you begin and end writing and give yourself credit for that many minutes of facing your frustration but denying your captors success! @ I just had to get these three wonderful talks off my chest. They seemed to build and build and climax with RMN. I don't usually send you anything that is not from an apostle. I trust them the most. The rest of us just try to do the best we can without the sure witness! Lawrence Wortham looked comfortably into my eyes and that steadiness seemed to say, I know the Saviour's love and I give it to you. He was solid. I really wouldn't be to surprised if he had had his calling and election made sure. But he was only 30 or less so I can't imagine he having to live with that stress and pressure for the rest of his life. Could his habits and patterns and longings and desires be so set upon the Lord that his end is known? I doubt it. Chances are he will be passing through a long life of trials and challenges and pain. I take it back. I don't think he has received the second witness yet.