Friday, October 2, 2015

Apologize, Ronald A. Rasband

Friday, 9:23pm,10/2/15, Good evening Brandon.Experiments, experiments. Always experimenting. We have a Chic-fil-A here in town. Someone left some  single servings of their buffalo sauce in the FHC fridge. I brought one home to see how it tasted. Since I never go out to eat, I have never had buffalo wings or anything like them. Guess what the 2nd ingredient is after peppers? I wrote the answer between the double ??’s a few~30 rows down.  I had to let you have a thoughtful guess. No just tell me the answer without guessing here! Anyway, I wasn’t impressed. I bought a case of WF macaroni n chz for 28 cents a box. I cooked one up last night and found it bland. I told BS about it and he said add salt, then he said add MSG. When he looked at buying a case with me on Monday evening he said, it is probably full of salt. 500mg. Then he bought a case like me. So he isn’t supposed to add salt and I am allergic to msg. funny bunny. @ I give people nicknames at the FHC and I often tell them what their nick names are. I met Elder big, yesterday and today. I met Elder English today. Elder big loved his new nickname. He is a young new missionary who has a brother 3 years older who is serving at the st. george temple. I suspect they are handicapped but I couldn’t see it in EB yet. Elder English watched me type like crazy for an hour and then prepare to leave. He  complimented my typing and I offered to explain it. As it turns out he taught HS English for 15 years and then went into administration for the money and missed the kids. I showed him one of your post cards to me this year and explained they switched to pcards at the Jail in December. When I showed him your writing on the other side he gaffawed. Can you read that he asked? Of course I had to tell him I can fit 600 handwritten words on a post card like your writing and 400 more if I make little blocks and fill in the front too. He was duely impressed. I told him of some of my experiments and not wanting to hand-write a whole conference talk on post cards and that I can now fit 4K words on a post card. He was fit to be tied! He was amazed and loved it. I always print off two postcard copies. The first one on FHC flimsy paper to be sure it is going to turn out and the second on heavier weight paper I provide. As you know I would use card-stock but it doesn’t print as clearly on that thickness. I gave him the first run copy from today incase he wants to tell his wife the story. He guaranteed me that he did!and valued the visual aide. Then he couldn’t help but ask about the little blue circles and references on the one I had just stamped to you. That was when I showed him my big original with all the colors and circles which he thought was wild, and explained how we were comparing Isaiah 29 with 2N27. I told him how much fun I had had doing it and of course he said: maybe for you it is fun but for me it looks tedious. That was when I told him I was an ol’ science teacher and he told me he was an ol’ English teacher. Sister Clark Sullivan asked me earlier this week, so that was the second time this week I got to explain about my correspondence. @ How clear is your conscience today? I have learned some weird things about mine these last 2 weeks. Mark says that most people can fend off offenses and not take them serious in a healthy way. As a sibling in my home of origin we became tough. We could take them and we could dish them out. But what I didn’t realize was that when my world got too stressful, too mean and hurtful I would become disociated and work like a puppeteer from a distance, pulling the strings and controlling my body and going through the motions remotely. ??vinegar?? In a SF book I finished this week there were 3 alien races and one of them had mind-reading/ telepathy skills. The first human woman spacer to have that latent ability was captured and tortured for 6 months and survived just before the story opened. Little did she know 1- she had been infected with some  time delayed diseases to wipe out the human race and 2- she had survived the mind invasion and physical torture by receding into herself deep enough the torture monster couldn’t reach her. I suspect many of us have had to have a place like that to survive some things in our lives. Perhaps you have that too. I know my sisters believe there were times when they left their tortured bodies as children and saw them from the outside. I haven’t had that as far as I can remember. @ But I discovered a defensiveness inside of me this week that kept me from having to accept blame. Later, as I tried to work it out I decided apologizing would be the fastest way to healing the situation. I did and it did. One nice thing about cell phones and texting is that you can write a text/ apology and deliver it immediately. Without facing the person, face to face. It really worked out well for me this time. @ Janice bom-teacher#1 delivered a copy of MRBalard’s Region Conference address at the end of class last night. I did her the service of excerpting the portion of a post card to you that included all I had about it last week. At work she knew someone who had a SLC connection where it was stored and so she made us both a copy. Look at the benefits of trying to help her out. I got a nice fresh clean original, although I really never wanted one. lol I will have to read it and see if maybe it isn’t more valuable than I remembered. @ As you remember I have been attending HP’s group. Sam Hales came up to me last week and said, Nice to have you here elder! and shook my hand. We like each other. @ BKP and DAB gave two of the most wonderful addresses in the last session of Oct’06 GC. I am going to send you 10 quotes from those 2 talks and see if you don’t sit back in amazement at the truths they reveal/ endorse/ share. 

BKP:1-If a well-worn yellow bandana was good enough to be an ensign to the world, then ordinary men who hold the priesthood and ordinary women and ordinary children in ordinary families, living the gospel as best they can all over the world, can shine forth as a standard, a defense, a refuge against whatever is to be poured out upon the earth

2-If we are doing the best we can, we should not become discouraged. When we fall short, as we do, or stumble, which we might, there is always the remedy of repentance and forgiveness.

3-Those faithful Brethren were not free, and we are not free, to alter the standards or to ignore them. We must live by them.It is not a cure or a comfort to simply say they do not matter. We all know they do matter, for all mankind is“instructed sufficiently that they know good from evil” (2Nephi 2:5). 

4-They understood that the stakes were to be a defense and a refuge, but at that time there was not one stake on the earth. They knew their mission was to establish stakes of Zion in every nation of the earth

.5- Now the stakes of Zion number in the thousands and are all over the world. The members number in the millions and growing. Neither of these can be held back,for this is the work of the Lord. Now members live in 160 nations and speak over 200 languages.Some live with an unspoken fear of what awaits us and the Church in the world. It grows ever darker in morality and spirituality. If we will gather into the Church, live the simple principles of the gospel, live moral lives,keep the Word of Wisdom, tend to our priesthood and other duties, then we need not live in fear. The Word of Wisdom is a key to both physical health and revelation.Avoid tea, coffee, liquor, tobacco, and narcotics. 

6-There has been no end to opposition. There are misinterpretations and misrepresentations of us and of our history, some of it mean-spirited and certainly contrary to the teachings of Jesus Christ and His gospel.Sometimes clergy, even ministerial organizations,oppose us. They do what we would never do. We do not attack or criticize or oppose others as they do us.

7-We face the challenge of raising families in the world in darkening clouds of wickedness. Some of our members are unsettled, and sometimes they wonder: Is there anyplace one can go to escape from it all? Is there another town or a state or a country where it is safe, where one can find refuge? The answer generally is no. The defense and the refuge is where our members now live.

8-a 70 Oaks:reminded us of an accord signed by 10 nations on board the battleship Missouri inTokyo Bay on September 2, 1945, which ended WorldWar II. Some of us were in Asia at the time. Said Elder(General) Oaks: “I can’t even imagine a circumstance today in which such a meeting could be held or such an accord could be signed to end the war against terrorism and wickedness in which we are engaged. It is not that kind of war.”


9-_DAB-When we believe or say we have been offended, we usually mean we feel insulted, mistreated, snubbed, or disrespected. And certainly clumsy, embarrassing, unprincipled, and mean-spirited things do occur in our interactions with other people that would allow us to take offense. However, it ultimately is impossible for another person to offend you or to offend me. Indeed,believing that another person offended us is fundamentally false. To be offended is a choice we make; it is not a condition inflicted or imposed upon us by someone or something else.

"“Let me make sure I understand what has happened to you. Because someone at church offended you, you have not been blessed by the ordinance of the sacrament. You have withdrawn yourself from the constant companionship of the Holy Ghost. Because someone at church offended you, you have cut yourself off from priesthood ordinances and the holy temple. You have discontinued your opportunity to serve others and to learn and grow. And you are leaving barriers that will impede the spiritual progress of your children, your children’s children, and the generations that will follow.” Many times people would think for a moment and then respond: “I have never thought about it that way.”

So what about my marriage? I just passed the 3rd year anniversary of my being divorced. I love relationships. You can probably tell that by my letters to you, YOU, IMPORTANT YOU! As if you could ever believe it. :) As you know I couldn’t help sending you Rachel n Leah, and now I am listening to Sarah. You are single so you probably can really relate to the loneliness. I think I just finished listening to chapter 13 and Kira, Lot’s wife has driven him crazy. She has had 5 daughters and they have lived in Sodom for all those births. She didn’t want any more children so she restricted Lot from her bed. Kira and Sarah are princesses of a kingdom called southern Ur. North Ur supports their dad as King but he has lost his city to desert thieves. Kira is spoiled and to use a phrase out of the book, she shakes off insults on all those around her like a dog shakes off water after a swim. Abram spent a year in Egypt and the Pharoah was so shocked at his patience and candor that he sends him away with flocks and herds galore. Abram returns to his land and divides the animals with Lot. Lot is so excited to leave Sodom where just the presence of a just man makes all the other men despise him, that he joins Abram in the tents and fields and they enjoy each other’s company. Even Sarah can’t stand the meanness and problems Kira causes when she leaves Sodom long after Lot and his 5 daughters and joins the sheepherders. (Shepherds) So everyone hates and can’t stand Kira. But her conniving ways promote anger and jealousy among the shepherds. Lot and Abram decide to split. Abram tells Sarah that Lot could just visit his home for a few days every month so his daughters have his support. Sarah tells Abram that Kira rips him apart if he is there or even if he is not. His daughters will be able to tell the difference says Abram. And that is where I begin to wonder? Can my children understand the difference between Kathyx who sued for divorce and Vern who never gave up trying to make the relationship work. Can they see the difference between Kathyx who was jealous of all the neighbors cars, yards, houses, incomes and Vern who was satisfied and grateful? And the worst new is. . . they have to learn how to get along with each of us. Whether we make sense to them or NOT! : ) gby-bltps-vj



Sunday, 10/4/15, ~6pm. I think I stayed awake and have listened to all 5 sessions of conference. One nice thing about it: I usually feel guilty if I don't get much done and just listen to conference sessions for a couple of days. So I tell myself, you were feeling sick and needed to recuperate, it is OK if all you did was listen to conference those 2 days.  But I don't have to make excuses on General Conference weekend! I still haven't walked the dog in a couple of days. I need to get her out and me! @ So did you commit to anything in conference? HBE did a fantastic job reminding us that we have felt the HG during conference and whatever he brought to our minds we should do. Someone else did a super job on that one Saturday as well. As Uchtdorf was talking today about desire, the first step is just to want to, I got an interesting idea. Sometimes I have a hard time believing all this is true.  I have been really impressed with my postcards to you the last couple of months because my faith and testimony have felt so strong. I mentioned that to you at our/ my visit. Well this is my idea: Just like I would love to have a crystal ball that worked or a seer stone, there are gospel miracles and teachings and stories that I wish with all my heart were true. So I thought I would make a list of things about the gospel that I would love to be true. I haven't begun it yet so at this point I am just hoping I will, but wouldn't it be fun to be able to look in your journal when you get to heaven and say, These are the things I wished for and really wanted to be true! For example: There is a young Mormon sitting in front of shelves of papyri and plates writing the BoM in an Arnold Friberg picture. Oh, how awesome it would be to me if that were true. I desire that to be true! Example #2 I would love to see JS looking in a hat with his seerstone in it reciting to Oliver Cowdery the sentences of the BoM without punctuation and not reading anything back after a break to be sure of where he left off. Now admittedly, neither of those is essential for my salvation, never the less. . . @ So I feasted and feasted during conference. I used to go work in the yard and blast GC out of the house so I could hear on Saturday. Not this year. I listened to every session just relaxing, laying back on my recliner. Usually I write in my journal during my 3 hour block of meetings on Sunday. I didn't even open my journal until the last 45 minutes of conference. @ I was a little bit indignant that a 70 would dare to create a new word and then teach us to do it. Ponderizing! But the longer I listened the more I liked it. In fact 3/4ths the way through I started clapping in excitement until my hands hurt! I was alone. @ My first scripture is Luke 4:18,19,and a portion of 21 and 23. What does the scripture say that JC quoted from Isaiah to announce his ministry? Woah, it is beautiful bps. It is sweet and gentle and loving. 19 says, To preach the acceptable year of the Lord. I hunted 4 or 5 places to find out what that might mean. And now I like it even more. I want to tease you: lds.org is so cool! Bishop Salmon told me at scout camp last year it is the only website he visited, and encouraged me to do the same. I'm not quite there yet. @ When I read J Ruben Clark Jr's, our lord of the gospels I discovered that Jesus taught a full year before he chose his apostles. He began on the first passover and didn't choose them till after the second passover. After going up to the pulpit and reading the above scripture to his townsmen he reads their minds and anticipates their question: 23. Ye will surely say unto me. . .whatsoever we have heard done in Capernaum, do also here in thy country. @He already had lots of preaching and miracles behind him. He was late proclaiming his ministry in Nazareth, and with reason. They got ticked and tried to kill him! @New topic. Weirdness #1 I picked 22 long nice dandelion leaves and soaked them for lunch today. I hoped to improve my vegetable vitamins. I ate them a couple of hours later with ham, cheese, and a yellow hot pepper. Weirdness #2 I have one molar implant. It came out the week before last when I was chewing a sticky hard cinnamon drop. I still haven't gone in to get it reattached. @ One of the new apostles is someone I fell in like with 5-8 years ago: Ronald A Rasband. At 11pm last night I sent out a 5 page text to 30-40 family and friends, owning him! This is the story I told but 160 characters is a text page so I really super condensed it. I looked up the real story afterwards because I wanted to see if I got it right! ~@~  .

The Divine Call of a Missionary

"Missionary work is a subject very close to my heart, as it is to every member of the eight Quorums of the Seventy, whom the Lord has appointed to go “before his face into every city and place, whither he himself would come.” 1Luke 10:1 Missionary work is the lifeblood of the Church and the lifesaving blessing to all who accept its message." @As Sister Rasband and I had the privilege of presiding over the New York New York North Mission several years ago, I marveled as the missionaries arrived in New York City. @ As I interviewed them on their first day in the mission, I had a profound sense of gratitude for each missionary. I felt that their call to our mission was divinely designed for them and for me as their mission president. @After finishing our mission assignment, I was called by President Gordon B. Hinckley to serve as a Seventy in the Church. Part of my early training as a new General Authority included an opportunity to sit with members of the Twelve as they assigned missionaries to serve in one of the 300-plus missions of this great Church. @With the encouragement and permission of President Henry B. Eyring, I would like to relate to you an experience, very special to me, which I had with him several years ago when he was a member of the Quorum of the Twelve. Each Apostle holds the keys of the kingdom and exercises them at the direction and assignment of the President of the Church. Elder Eyring was assigning missionaries to their fields of labor, and as part of my training, I was invited to observe.
I joined Elder Eyring early one morning in a room where several large computer screens had been prepared for the session. There was also a staff member from the Missionary Department who had been assigned to assist us that day. @First, we knelt together in prayer. I remember Elder Eyring using very sincere words, asking the Lord to bless him to know “perfectly” where the missionaries should be assigned. The word “perfectly” said much about the faith that Elder Eyring exhibited that day. @As the process began, a picture of the missionary to be assigned would come up on one of the computer screens. As each picture appeared, to me it was as if the missionary were in the room with us. Elder Eyring would then greet the missionary with his kind and endearing voice: “Good morning, Elder Reier or Sister Yang. How are you today?” @He told me that in his own mind he liked to think of where the missionaries would conclude their mission. This would aid him to know where they were to be assigned. Elder Eyring would then study the comments from the bishops and stake presidents, medical notes, and other issues relating to each missionary. @He then referred to another screen which displayed areas and missions across the world. Finally, as he was prompted by the Spirit, he would assign the missionary to his or her field of labor. @From others of the Twelve, I have learned that this general method is typical each week as Apostles of the Lord assign scores of missionaries to serve throughout the world. @Having served as a missionary in my own country in the Eastern States Mission a number of years ago, I was deeply moved by this experience. Also, having served as a mission president, I was grateful for a further witness in my heart that the missionaries I had received in New York City were sent to me by revelation. @After assigning a few missionaries, Elder Eyring turned to me as he pondered one particular missionary and said, “So, Brother Rasband, where do you think this missionary should go?” I was startled! I quietly suggested to Elder Eyring that I did not know and that I did not know I could know! He looked at me directly and simply said, “Brother Rasband, pay closer attention and you too can know!” With that, I pulled my chair a little closer to Elder Eyring and the computer screen, and I did pay much closer attention! @A couple of other times as the process moved along, Elder Eyring would turn to me and say, “Well, Brother Rasband, where do you feel this missionary should go?” I would name a particular mission, and Elder Eyring would look at me thoughtfully and say, “No, that’s not it!” He would then continue to assign the missionaries where he had felt prompted. @As we were nearing the completion of that assignment meeting, a picture of a certain missionary appeared on the screen. I had the strongest prompting, the strongest of the morning, that the missionary we had before us was to be assigned to Japan. I did not know that Elder Eyring was going to ask me on this one, but amazingly he did. I rather tentatively and humbly said to him, “Japan?” Elder Eyring responded immediately, “Yes, let’s go there.” And up on the computer screen the missions of Japan appeared. I instantly knew that the missionary was to go to the Japan Sapporo Mission. @Elder Eyring did not ask me the exact name of the mission, but he did assign that missionary to the Japan Sapporo Mission. @Privately in my heart I was deeply touched and sincerely grateful to the Lord for allowing me to experience the prompting to know where that missionary should go. @At the end of the meeting Elder Eyring bore his witness to me of the love of the Savior, which He has for each missionary assigned to go out into the world and preach the restored gospel. He said that it is by the great love of the Savior that His servants know where these wonderful young men and women, senior missionaries, and senior couple missionaries are to serve. I had a further witness that morning that every missionary called in this Church, and assigned or reassigned to a particular mission, is called by revelation from the Lord God Almighty through one of these, His servants. @~@ Wasn't that totally awesome Brandon? If you need more time to process it and see what you feel and think, take it now. Don't read on because I am going to blab about what it meant to me. @ Halt, Stop, go back! Do not proceed. Single lane, one-way traffic! @ Was that a good enough warning? Blab: 1- I figured it was way too  sacred for the first presidency to share how missionaries were assigned. I served in Guatemala and have always wondered how that assignment was made. 2- Rasband is humble. He has no clue about how HBE is doing it! It is like Elder Eyring is magic as far as Rasband can tell. 3- HBE is gentle and inviting. He includes RAR. He lets RAR try over and over again with recuperation times in between and takes advantage of the opportunity to teach RAR.  Eyring could have just hauled along and done it all himself. 4- The power is real. These are good wholesome, pure apostle and future apostle and they can tap into the power of the HG and therefore the mind and will of God to make assignments to individual servants going into the mission field. 5- It can be learned. And when both of you are feeling the same thing it is a witness to your soul that it is the right spirit, the Holy Spirit you are tapping into. 6- That paper signed by the prophet that comes to the missionary is a revelation from God, through a member of the 12 to you! I keep mine with my patriarchal blessing. 7- God can do his own work. I think it was Elder DAB that bore witness that he has watched the Holy Ghost reveal things to the twelve that allowed them to manage HF Kingdom on this earth beyond a man's ability. Dear Elder Bednar, his closing address gave tribute to each of the 6 apostles who have passed since he became an apostle. He was so unintentionally funny when he said he has been waiting 10 years for there to be an apostle younger than he is! 8-With the encouragement and permission of President Henry B. Eyring, I would like to relate to you an experience, very special to me, RAR got permission and even encouragement to share this story. I first heard it in our Regional Conference & I was flabbergasted. 9- Evidence of the love of the Savior, which He has for each missionary assigned to go out into the world and preach the restored gospel. I cannot fathom how HF can know each one of us and what he wants us to become. I cannot fathom that there are no such things as coincidences. I am still stuck in my old science teaching mode of probabilities and possibilities. I just can't fathom a divine personal plan for me, individually. Now I will admit that I believe he has guided my life up to now. 6 decades of guidance and care. But that he can/  does understand my everyday, and every effort blows my mind. @ I will just sit back and keep talking to him like a friend and hope and trust, even if I can't believe.  This is one of those desire examples. @ I notice when I get thrills/ chills, tears, and confirmations during GC. But I was shocked when I googled Henry B Eyring after conference and saw my picture on the bottom entry! What in the world was I doing there! Last Jan 14, 2015 I used his name in the title of my blog. I had not put a B. but just a B for his middle initial. I was shocked and proud! I went and read the blog and it was a good one with a bunch of his best quotes all color coded from his talk. I am hoping that the testimony I bear and the truths  I share will be of value to others in the future. @ So many people are so shy or too untrusting to post anything. If this helps spread the gospel of Jesus Christ in any way I will be so pleased! 8:04pm









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